Sleep isn’t really necessary, is it?

Sometimes, the stories won’t let me sleep. Not that I sleep much to begin with. But sometimes… they demand to be written. This is actually a welcome feeling, given my long term fight with writer’s block.

Blah…

And it will be another several years before I do any sort of family event again.  I am so glad I didn’t do a big party.  Just this group of people in the house is enough to cause me to want to jump out of the window.  Seriously… I have never been around a bigger group of people who can’t be satisfied.  There always has to be something.  People reach out from a far and pluck nerves.

Would your life be better or worse if you knew the day, time, and place that you were going to die?

cultural-escapist:

If such a thing were to occur, I would be devastated  Some may see it as an opportunity to live life to the fullest, I would see it as a death notice. I would gaze into the eyes of my loved ones and see a date and time, i would see their lips move but hear the sound of a clock ticking. It would be terrible to fall in love, marry, have children and realize suddenly, that you’re day of death is right around the corner. What then? Do you allow them to prepare and say their goodbyes, always constantly wondering if someone they meet will know of their appointed date with death or do you allow them to live life naturally, believing you to do the same? I for one would try to live normally, in fact, depending on the date and how many years I had, i wouldn’t even fall in love. I would hate to see someone suffer and grieve before their time. 

*Please share your thoughts! If i get as many responses as I did with the Love question, then I’ll start adding more questions that we can discuss! 

 I would probably curl up into a ball and cry until time… or screw up and die before because the anticipation would kill me.  It is all cute and fluffy to say I would go and kiss who I wanted and sky dive and set fires (pyro) and other things on the bucket list… but the reality of me is that I would be paralyzed.  I wouldn’t tell anyone… I would be worse than I already am.  I’d rather not know.

Day 318

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• i hate double standards…
• guys don’t want a girl who does the same stuff they do, living by their rules…
• yet and still, guys also don’t want to do the old fashioned things that men should do…
• so i am confused. and it is a wonder that men complain about the chickenheads they end up with because i don’t know a single real woman who is going to put up with that.
• how do you want a girl who can be freaky in bed but don’t want a girl who has done freaky stuff with other guys?
• how is it that you want a girl who needs you but what an independent woman who doesn’t ask you for a thing?
• this is not to say that woman don’t do the exact same thing.
• one of my friends likes to say that if you want a person to behave a certain way you have to do the same for them… so if you want an aggressive person you need to be aggressive.
• but what if i want someone who is just aggressive enough to compliment my passiveness?  someone who is decisive enough to make up for my indecision?
• What is wrong with wanting someone to fill in the gaps?

Day 313…

• There are times when I would rather perform my own labotomy with the wooden spoon from the Italian Ice then talk on the phone.
• This is not to say that there aren’t times when I chat with someone for over an hour with no intention of hanging up the phone.
• I am CRAVING some ice cream right now…
• Ramen for lunch… -_-
• I have several projects in my head…
• I need them to come out and complete themselves…
• That first bullet is more me than the second…
• I need this bottle of water to taste like mountain dew…

Day 305 ~ Can you dig it?

• First, and most importantly, you need to understand that he was the greatest man I never knew.  If you can get that then you are maybe 1/3 of the way to understanding me.
• 91 mg of caffeine… ice cold & laced with 77 grams of sugar…
• I don’t see a way to avoid the cycle that I am caught up in… I thought I jumped out… must be playing double dutch…
• I have decided that instead of getting another tattoo for my birthday… I will finally get myself the turtle that I have been putting off getting all year.
• I think the tendonitis in my right hand is a direct result of me not writing enough.
• Time to pull out my resume & apply for some jobs…
• There are no less than 100 different things going on in my mind at this very moment.
• I know that when a person tells me they understand, 9 times out of 10 they have no fucking idea…